Changes.

It's like a breath of Fresh air really. This decision that I've made, to make some changes has taken a lot of time-a lot of coaching from my brothers and sisters (thanx guys).

It's gonna be hard..it already has been, but I'm in it for reals this time. I've said it a million times, I've given up a million times because of maybe people, or circumstances, but I'm just so tired...of people deciding who I am...in all honesty I don't think anyone REALLY knows who I am, but I've been figuring it out. and I'm ready to not give a crap about people liking this person because I'm going to start liking her...no no no I will LOVE her :)

I had this kind of attitude-not caring what people really thought-and they thought I was pmsy, and I was rude or whatever. First attempt, but who cares I'm done. I'm not saying this has given me all the confidence in the world, i mean it takes time, and I'm not gonna all of a sudden be like HEY This is me!!!! But I've definitely come a LONG way...woohoo..

High school is a sure Rollercoaster..and not always the fun kind. But i'm so glad I've made it this far without completely giving up.

I'm also going to be changing my room, the way I've kinda wanted it for a while-well pretty much I've wanted to do something more creative with it. I'm totally doing it, my mom helped me make that decision and It'll work out. And it'll be the best D@#* room to spend the next year or so in. My LAST years..

and I'll be outta this town, away from people that I've lived with, grown up with, loved, hated, envied, crushed on, whatever. Who knows what I'll do, but If I'm happy Now, I'll be happy then so I don't really worry about what's going to happen with my future.

Just for the much wanted play by play haha: the next update will probably be my trip to moab. I was given the idea to take a trip somewhere alone, and my trip around town doesn't count, it didn't give me that much freedom so i'm going to moab to get some much needed strings for my geetar. Hopefully. It sounds good right now...who knows. A trip up north sounds juss FABULOUS but i'm not that brave yet.